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I mean it.

I didn't exactly have a good night's sleep last night because my dad's conversation kept buzzing around in my head, but I eventually dozed off at around 2:30 and slept until noon.

So.

Bottom line is, people are going to be douchenozzles over the Internet if they damn well feel like it and I can't control that. It's one of those bitter realities I have a hard time processing, but it's an occupational hazard that comes with wanting to make a living of artwork. Maybe I could post a video of me saying what I said in the last journal entry, showing my face and all, so at least I'm humanizing myself in front of the masses. I've noticed people are more willing to listen to a rant when it's a video with a person's face instead of a wall of text, so I could give it a shot.

Now. I'm not going to shut down like I did two years ago; that is out of the question. Not only did I personally suffer from doing that, but it took an astounding toll on my friends and family. I just wasn't the same. And you know what? I'm still not the same. I don't think I'll ever be.

The slow traffic on this page is due to that change. I now go over a long period of thinking before I click the submit button. In the end, the pictures I've posted here are, though plastered with watermarks, the ones I'm sort of okay with being distributed.

I don't intend on using dA as the only means to publish my work, though. I enter contests in my area and take on part-time gigs whenever the chance comes around and hell, I sent a portfolio to an internship at Disney. I didn't get in, but I'll apply again next year. Anyway. My point is, this site will be one more place in which I share pictures I intend to be spread around and I talk with other people, albeit at a slower pace. This isn't gonna rule my life.

I just need constant reassurance that I'm gonna be okay.

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